Sensual and Sexual, with Passion, Pleasure, and Longing
 

INTRO:
Trips to the cabin were the best of times for Thom and Julius.  They went as often as they could, when time away from their stressful careers would allow.  Thom had loved Julius since college.  Julius was the most accepting person Thom had ever known.  He never once heard him pass judgment on anyone.  Thom had never told Julius that he was gay, but thought that he had to have known.  Thom had many gay friends, and a few lovers. 

It isn’t until the two of them are well entrenched in their careers that Julius begins to have relationship problems.  When his girlfriend leaves him, he turns to Thom, just as he has always done following his many breakups.  Thom’s suggestion that they get away to their favorite cabin for the weekend is more than welcomed by Julius, but Thom is surprised by his friend’s latest revelation.
 

EXCERPT:
Thom had always loved, and had even worshipped, his college roommate before Thom had come to terms with being gay.  Thom came out to him long after college, after he and his college roommate had established their own careers, and Julius had surprised Thom by saying only, “I know, Thom.  I know.” 

They still saw each other frequently enough, spending many weekends in a cabin owned by Thom’s parents, just the two of them, in an attempt to get away from their stressful jobs.  Thom had always loved that his former roommate was very open-minded.  Thom had noticed this about Julius from the first few days they had spent together.  Julius had had lots of friends, from all walks of life.  Julius never once passed judgment.  Thom only wished that he had had the guts to reveal his true feelings for his roommate back then, and especially now.  They weren’t getting any younger.  

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Several years after their many wonderful years together as roommates, on the quite frequent occasions when they got together, these same types of questions about gay sex escalated after Julius had been emotionally torn apart by his girlfriend of several years.  She had called it quits one night with no warning.  Julius was devastated, and had called Thom right afterward.  “What happened, buddy?”  Thom didn’t know what to say.  He had never been interested in girls the way that Julius was, sexually.  Julius told him that she had met another man, but quickly changed the subject to ask more about gay sex.  “What’s it like, that kind of intimacy, I mean?”  “Hey Julius, why the increased curiosity about intimacy between males?”  “Well, I have a confession, Thom.  It kinda is what helped to cause the breakup with my girlfriend.”  “Okay, what’s your confession?”  “She caught me surfing explicit gay web sites.” 

Thom didn’t know how to respond to this.  It must have seemed like an hour had passed before Thom spoke again.  “Are you still curious about gay sex, buddy, after all this time?”  Thom tried to be as sensitive as he could be over the phone.  “Would you like to experiment with someone you know you can trust?”  Before Julius could answer, Thom went ahead and suggested that the two of them spend the weekend in the mountains.  “How ‘bout it, Julius?  It’s been awhile since we’ve gotten away to the cabin.  Maybe a break is what both of us could use.”  “Yeah, that’s always fun, just you and me.  Thanks, Thom.  That would be nice,” he whispered into the phone.  

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It was almost dark when Thom and Julius met at the old familiar cabin that belonged to Thom’s parents, but was never used by them.  He and Julius were the only two people who ever came up here.  It could definitely use a mowing, Thom noticed as he pulled up in front of the old place. 

 “Hey, we got here at the same time,” Thom said, trying to make Julius feel at ease.  He took his friend’s hand, partly to avoid losing each other in the thick darkness, but mostly because he wanted to touch any part of Julius that he could.  After they had been at the cabin for over an hour, they decided to pull out the old bed.  “I remember it being a lot more comfortable,” Thom remarked, as he lay down on top of the old bed.  They slowly undressed each other as they prepared for their first encounter of lovemaking.  Thom definitely wanted everything to be perfect.  He had waited too long to be with Julius.  Julius looked tired to Thom, maybe even a little weary. 

Once completely naked, Julius was able to achieve only partial stiffness despite Thom’s loving words and gentle fondling of his friend’s full package.  Thom softly kissed his neck and then his nipples, going very slowly with this new, yet not at all new, love of his.  He lovingly assisted Julius onto the bed, and then watched as Julius, exhausted, fell asleep in his arms.